Change

We are in the middle of moving now. The wedding is over and the honeymoon is still going strong. :) I am furiously NOT packing. There are moments to clarity where I clear out a shelf but the motivation is gone. I hope I can get it before Saturday because on Sunday we are going to look for some kittens to warm up the house. GAH! New fur.
I also want to send my condolences and good thoughts to the people of Tennessee and the horrible tragedy that occurred there just a short time ago. Namaste.

Sadness

I hurt today. The loss of ButterCup has really hit hard and I just cannot get excited for my wedding that is only two days away. Big B is sad too because he can't seem to cheer me up no matter what he does. All I want to do is curl up into a ball on the bed and cry until I sleep. Guests and friends are arriving in the next day but there is no real joy to speak of yet. There is hope that with the arrival of C tonight, I will feel better. But I make no promises.

Passing

It is with great pain and even more sorrow that I tell you all about my little girl. Today at about 5pm, she will go to sleep for good. ButterCup has some kind of stomach cancer that decided to show up at the most inopportune of times. The doctor said her chances were very slim and short of time. I decided that the best idea was to send her up to my Pappy in heaven so they could be together.
Bruce and I are very sad but only because we will miss her terribly. No one napped on my hip or drooled on my chest like her. She has been my best friend for 11-ish years. Her presence kept me sane and safe when I was at my worst. She was there when I became happy again and she was there when I met the love of my life.
I will be there when she takes her final breath in this world.

Please say a little prayer for her safe journey.

ButterCup

She is sick. My sweet darling isn't eating and has lost a LOT of weight. We are headed to the Vet's office today. Please think good thoughts about her. She needs all the help she can get.